Week Five

HOLY MOLYYY!!!!

I feel like because volleyball has taken a 180…that my life has taken a 180. 

Volleyball has been my everything for such a long time so when things didn't go my way…I was depressed. I read my first posts in my Word document and I am shocked that I felt that way for such a long time. I truly wanted to quit.

We played in Hawaii and I was able to travel since last year I had a concussion.

Hawaii was beautiful!!! I loved it. However, if I had a choice,  I would rather go to Nicaragua again because it is less expensive and also I really liked helping people and working with the kids out there.

We lost every game in Hawaii like what the hell. How do you loose every game??!That truly bothers me. I played well. So I am happy with that. 

Week Four

Things have changed so much for me.

I have been starting in middle back every game. I am second highest with the most digs, third with the most aces and the highest serve receive stats.

My coach is finally making a little more sense. Our team has approved so much since last year it's almost crazy.
I will not be quitting. My team has been doing so well. I am finally feeling better about myself.

I played against Academy of Arts and it was an extremely good game except out hitters and blockers didn't show up. It relied mostly on defense. Thank god Carina was playing really well too! I hit her in the back when I dove with my knee brace and knocked the wind out of her and I feel TERRIBLE. When I saw her cry, I wanted to cry.

I am happy things have turned around completely for me since the first week.

Week Three

Things are somewhat better. We have played a few games and I have played a little.

We went to Oregon and I did not play once and then I played middle back and all of a sudden she put me in as libero. I had 27 digs and was extremely proud of myself. Until the next game…she pulled me out again!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY COACH!!!!??FJIF uguf9 dcgyv

OKAY so I ask my coach the deal because I am tired of feeling this way and her constantly playing with my head every day. I was hoping for things to turn around after about a month of playing but things have not. I have the highest passing stats and I am not playing.

I have talked to my mom about quitting and she completely supports me in my decision.

I have a lot to think about. 

Week Two

I HATE IT!!!!!!

I am so mad at everything. We have had three scrimmages and won two of them but I did not see the court once. I wanted to cry the whole time. I was the starting libero all last season before and after my concussion.

Volleyball is the one thing that I came to this school for and the one thing that consistently makes me happy and to have it be so terrible gives me the worst feeling ever. I want to go home.

I am so disappointed that a freshmen is playing over me like wtf.

My feelings are so much and this blog is the only person i am talking to about it.

At this point, I am ready to quit volleyball. 

Week One

We have gone to Nicaragua and had practice for about a week now. We have been assigned to write blogs on something consistent that we do each week. I am a senior on the volleyball team so I figured I would write about something a little different. I would write about how I am feeling each week about the sport I love most and why.

I am sooo out of shape because I did not work out all summer. I had a lot of medical issues this summer so I feel like crap. My coach is upsetting me because she doesn't refer to me as "captain" anymore so I am starting to get pissed off. We are practicing about 2 hours each day and I am not loving volleyball. The new girls are making me mad too because they walk on the court!!!